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Feast of Saint Matthew, Apostle and evangelist

“As Jesus passed by, he saw a man named Matthew sitting at the customs post. He said to him, ‘Follow me.’ And he got up and followed him.” In today’s Gospel reading, Matthew immediately drops whatever he is doing and follows Jesus.

The painting by Caravaggio, The Calling of Saint Matthew, shows Matthew among four others, who also appear to be tax collectors. Matthew is hunched over a table, counting change as another tax collector helps him. In his left hand, Matthew clutches close to his chest what appears to be a money bag. The way Matthew slumps over the table and the coins reminds me of the way I must look as I work at my desk during the day, strong in self-reliance and confident in my ability but often forgetting that Jesus says throughout the day, “Follow me.” Just as in the past, the temptation today is strong to cling to what we know. In my own life, there are the attachments to comfort, material goods, and a desire and expectation to earn a certain amount of money and the honor and self-respect that go along with that. How can I be more like Matthew and follow Jesus as he describes in the Gospel: “And he got up and followed him.”

Lord, you know me; you know when I sit and when I stand; you know when I am falling down. There are days when I feel on the losing end—not enough time, not worthy enough, not wealthy enough—and that if I just manipulated one more thing, things would turn around for me. I think that “me” is what you called Matthew out of. He left the company of tax collectors, the money bag he clutched, and the desperate sense that there is not enough, that there would never be enough. You came to him, Divine Physician, because he was sick and needed to lose his life through following you to find your unfathomable mercy.

I believe Jesus called Matthew in the same way he called Peter to walk on the water. Both were planted firmly on the solid ground of their professional lives: Matthew at his customs post and Peter in his fishing boat. Lord, say to me today: “Follow me.” I can’t be certain I will do your will or that I will even hear you. Let your grace make clear to me what it is you have to give to me. Let me realize that in your love there is enough; there is more than enough.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

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Memorial of Saints Andrew Kim Tae-gŏn, Priest, and Paul Chŏng Ha-sang, and Companions, Martyrs

The mother of Jesus and his brothers came to him but were unable to join him because of the crowd. He was told, “Your mother and your brothers are standing outside and they wish to see you.” He said to them in reply, “My mother and my brothers are those who hear the word of God and act on it.”

The Gospel reading says that Mary and Jesus’ brothers—from Greek, adelphoi, or member of the same religious community—could not join him because of the crowd. Jesus was told that by someone who remains unknown. Did that person believe that Jesus’ mother and brothers had privileged access to him, despite the crowd? By his reply, in no way does Jesus diminish the role of his mother or brothers by saying those who hear the word of God and act on it are his mother and brothers. Are there times when I believe I have privileged access to Jesus, even without hearing and doing his will?

Thank you, God, for the clarity of your Son’s statement. Hear your word and act on it. Hear and act. Without the burden of guilt and shame, I desire to hear and do your will throughout the day. If I were to act only out of guilt or out of shame in recovering from a misstep, I can’t say that is desire to be in your presence. I sometimes believe I am better at identifying what your will is not than what it is. Help me understand how to avoid turning in the wrong direction so that I can keep you in my line of sight and recognize what is your will.

Just as Mary and Jesus’ brothers desired to join him, I also desire to put myself in your presence. Let nothing impede that today; let me hear and act. Stay with me, Lord, and let me know your outlandish love for me.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

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Monday of the Twenty-fifth Week in Ordinary Time

Jesus said to the crowd: “No one who lights a lamp conceals it with a vessel or sets it under a bed; rather, he places it on a lampstand so that those who enter may see the light. For there is nothing hidden that will not become visible, and nothing secret that will not be known and come to light.”

In today’s reading, Jesus speaks to the crowd about bringing light to others so that they may see. No one would conceal or prevent the light from shining once having lit it. That makes sense so far. But then Jesus says, all that is hidden will become visible and that all secrets will come to light. For humans, whatever light we have is given by God’s grace and that is all we can give away in turn. But to bring to visibility whatever is hidden and into the light whatever is secret, that belongs to God. Just as God said at the creation of the world, “Let there be light,” so Jesus is able to say that whatever is hidden will become visible and whatever is secret will come to light. Is that what heaven will be like? Will all that is hidden and secret be visible in the light of God’s being?

God, help me understand that the gifts you give me I have to choose to give back to you in return. What else could I do but take to heart and try to understand your words? “To anyone who has, more will be given, and from the one who has not, even what he seems to have will be taken away.” The lamp that you light, God, is the source of all light and in it nothing remains hidden; it has by its essence the power to make what is invisible visible.

Stay with me today, Lord. Bring to light in me whatever remains in shadow so that I will be prepared for that day when all will be brought to light and nothing will remain secret.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now and ever shall be. World without end. Amen.

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Saturday of the Twenty-fourth Week in Ordinary Time

As for the seed that fell among thorns, they are the ones who have heard, but as they go along, they are choked by the anxieties and riches and pleasures of life, and they fail to produce mature fruit.

In the parable where Jesus is gathered before a large crowd, he tells them of the seed sown by a sower: some fell on the path, some on rocky ground, and some among thorns. That seed failed to grow. But some fell on good soil, “and when it grew, it produced fruit a hundredfold.” Jesus’ disciples ask him the meaning of this parable, and he tells them but first says something seemingly cryptic: “Knowledge of the mysteries of the Kingdom of God has been granted to you; but to the rest, they are made known through parables so that they may look but not see, and hear but not understand.” I feel as if I am the rest the Jesus refers to; that is, I look but do not see and hear but do not understand.

God, help me know where I stand. Over time, I have been each type of seed that Jesus describes. Help me understand how to recognize when the word of God within me is in danger of being trampled, or withering for lack of moisture, or fallen among thorns. There, among thorns, is where I find myself most often when the word of God fails to bear fruit. As Jesus describes the seed that falls among thorns, it is “choked by the anxieties and riches and pleasures of life.” The result of this is that the word of God fails to produce mature fruit. The word of God is immutable; yet, my reception of it—embracing it with a good and generous heart—is what allows God to work through me, body and soul. Saint Paul says it this way as he describes the resurrection of the dead: “It is sown a natural body; it is raised a spiritual body. If there is a natural body, there is also a spiritual one.”

What is there, Lord, behind the veil that you want me to look and see and hear and understand? I know you want to give me every good thing in this life. In the life to come, how will I have prepared myself to see you face to face? And the usual place where seed falls—among thorns? How is it that your grace will work in that area of my life? Father in heaven, show me how to live among the anxieties and riches and pleasures of life—the perishable things—without being choked by them. Instead, let me choose to receive your word and by doing that nurture in me what is imperishable so that I can be ready to come into your kingdom.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

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Memorial of Saints Cornelius, Pope, and Cyprian, Bishop, Martyrs

Accompanying him were the Twelve and some women who had been cured of evil spirits and infirmities, Mary, called Magdalene, from whom seven demons had gone out, Joanna, the wife of Herod’s steward Chuza, Susanna, and many others who provided for them out of their resources.

The women in today’s Gospel reading, Mary Magdalene, Joanna, Susana, and many others provided for Jesus and the apostles out of their own resources. If there is reason for them to follow Jesus other than their faith in him, the example of Mary Magdalene explains the gratitude she has for Jesus in expelling seven demons from her. As a group of women supporting Jesus, his apostles, and his mission, they almost certainly drew on immaterial resources to nurture and solidify each other’s faith in him. Unlike them, who followed Jesus during his time on earth, we have the hope of the resurrection through Jesus, as Saint Paul says, “the firstfruits of those who have fallen asleep.” In my own experience, who are the people around me that nurture my faith even as I identify myself as a follower of Jesus through His “one, holy, catholic, and apostolic Church”? Who encourages me to question my faith in a way that strengthens it when challenged by questions such as the one Saint Paul asks? “And if Christ has not been raised, then empty too is our preaching; empty, too, your faith.”

Help me see and understand, Lord, what it means to provide for the Church out of my own resources. I know this means providing more than financial or material resources. In my own family, guide my words and actions to support you in “preaching and proclaiming the good news of the Kingdom of God.” Give me the grace to show gratitude in the areas of my life where you have been present and have forgiven my sins through the Sacrament of Reconciliation and over the years have bestowed countless blessings, some of which I will never come to comprehend in this life.

Contained in the Stations of the Cross is a prayer that is attributed to Saint Francis whenever he caught sight of a Catholic church in the distance: “We adore you O Christ and we praise you because, by your holy cross, you have redeemed the world!” Keep me, Lord, from believing what is most pitiable, that my faith is vain. Stay with me today, risen Lord, and grant me the grace to boldly proclaim the good news of the Kingdom of God.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

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Memorial of Our Lady of Sorrows

When Jesus saw his mother and the disciple there whom he loved he said to his mother, “Woman, behold, your son.” Then he said to the disciple, “Behold, your mother.” And from that hour the disciple took her into his home.

As Jesus is dying on the cross in great pain and suffering, he thinks about his mother and uses some of his lasts breath to see to her care. Why? Because Jesus knew that Mary would be the means of bringing sinners to her son and to his divine mercy. This is not the only place in Scripture where those who love Mary are told to take her into their home. When Joseph learned that Mary was pregnant, he wanted to quietly divorce her. But an angel of the Lord came to him and said, “Do not be afraid to take Mary into your home.” Jesus asks his beloved disciple John to take care of his mother and thus asks any of his beloved children to take Mary into their home.

From the Stabat Mater come these lines:

O sweet Mother! font of love,
Touch my spirit from above,
Make my heart with yours accord.

Make me feel as you have felt;
Make my soul to glow and melt
With the love of Christ, my Lord.

And that is what Mary does best: she hears our prayers from above and melts the stoniest of hearts with love of Christ. And although Joseph was not present at the foot of the cross, I know he must have been present in unity with Jesus and Mary. I want to understand what it means to be in company throughout the day with the Holy Family. I imagine myself walking with Mary and Joseph ahead of me and Jesus behind to lead and guide. Knowing this is no flight of fancy—that Jesus, Mary, and Joseph, are present with me—brings a great sense of peace grounded in ultimate reality and truth. This is the truth of the Gospel, as Saint Paul puts it: “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. . . . For here we have no lasting city, but we seek the one that is to come.”

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

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Feast of the Exaltation of the Holy Cross

Jesus said to Nicodemus: “No one has gone up to heaven except the one who has come down from heaven, the Son of Man. And just as Moses lifted up the serpent in the desert, so must the Son of Man be lifted up, so that everyone who believes in him may have eternal life.”

In the first reading, Moses follows the instructions the Lord gave him to save the people by mounting a bronze serpent on a pole. Whoever looked upon it after being bitten lived. In the same way, Jesus says, he was to be lifted up on the cross so that everyone who believes in him will be redeemed and have eternal life. Little deaths surround me daily, and each day I sometimes think about ultimate death. Inasmuch as I am able to look at Christ throughout the day, I can unite these little deaths and the final one to Jesus’ crucifixion and its truth: Jesus saves us from sin and death for eternal life.

God, help me grasp your unconditional love. Time after time throughout salvation history, as in the time of Moses, you were merciful despite your people’s rejection of you. As Saint Paul says, “Christ Jesus, though he was in the form of God, did not regard equality with God something to be grasped. Rather, he emptied himself . . . becoming obedient to death, even death on a cross.” For everyone who believes in the Son of Man, love such as this destroys sin and death.

Lord, how can I begin to understand the mystery of the cross? I ask for the grace today to fix my eyes on Jesus Christ lifted up on the cross. In participation with the crucifixion, I ask that you help me see that to redeem us from sin, this was necessary because, Lord, you are mercy itself. Whatever little sacrifices I have today, show me how to accept rather than shun them and sanctify them for your glory.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

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Memorial of Saint John Chrysostom, Bishop and Doctor of the Church

He stepped forward and touched the coffin; at this the bearers halted, and he said, ”Young man, I tell you, arise!” The dead man sat up and began to speak, and Jesus gave him to his mother.

The Gospel passage for today takes place soon after yesterday’s reading, when Jesus healed the slave of a centurion. Jesus drew near the gate of the city as a man who had died was being carried out. A large crowd followed the mother of the young man, and Jesus stepped forward and touched the coffin. Why is it that Jesus touched the open coffin, or bier, and not the man himself? On Jesus’ command, the man sat up at once and began to speak. Then the crowd was overcome by fear and glorified God, exclaiming, “A great prophet has arisen in our midst,” and “God has visited his people.”

God, how is it that Jesus needed only to touch the coffin for the dead man to rise? Help me understand what in some ways seems obvious. Just as you healed the slave of the centurion from a distance, you raise the man from the dead by touching only his coffin. You have in your hands the things that represent death and life and death itself. The function and symbolism of the coffin is shattered, the terror of the crucifix becomes a symbol of salvation and resurrection, and death itself returns to dust while we rise with Christ to new life.

A few simple thoughts: death does not have the last word; the Word incarnate, the risen Christ, has the last word. Life is present always in returning to God, in raising a hand toward him. So good is God that he never tires of me and is ready to have me in his presence whether I am coming or going, aloof on some human mission or desperate for his hand to touch what is dead and be brought to new life. Be with me, Lord; whether I stand in light or in shadow, stay with me today.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

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Monday of the Twenty-fourth Week in Ordinary Time

When Jesus heard this he was amazed at him and, turning, said to the crowd following him, “I tell you, not even in Israel have I found such faith.” When the messengers returned to the house, they found the slave in good health.

The Gospel reading and first reading for today contain familiar words that are heard at Mass: from Paul, “This is my Body that is for you”; and from Luke, “Lord, I am not worthy to have you enter under my roof.“ In a way, the readings are stories of unity and division. Saint Paul tells us how the early church had divisions in it in the way they practiced the Eucharist, or, as he calls it, the Last supper. His letter to the members of that community recalls Jesus’ institution of the Eucharist. In the Gospel passage, the Roman centurion asks for Jesus to come and save the life of his slave. The elders among the Jewish community in Capernaum tell Jesus that he deserves this “for he loves our nation and he built the synagogue for us.” This depiction of unity between a Roman soldier and the Jewish people contrasts with the inner division Saint Paul describes. Today I am certain the choice to foster division or unity will present itself to me in various ways. How will I respond?

How is it possible that among the Romans who occupied Jerusalem and brought Jesus to his crucifixion there were those who supported and brought unity to the Jewish people and the practice of their faith? In my own life, God, help me understand the words and actions of mine that create either unity or division. What is at stake is something great—whether I share the breaking of the Eucharistic bread to bring Christ present or whether I abandon or forget it. There is more to this than I understand.

Lord, I feel the weight of the day, the weight of the week on my shoulders. I know it’s never as bad as it seems. Be present with me today as I remember you in the Eucharist and ask for your help to know and do your will, whether that brings unity or division.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

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Twenty-fourth Sunday in Ordinary Time

Jesus said to the scribes and Pharisees, “A man had two sons, and the younger son said to his father, ‘Father give me the share of your estate that should come to me.’ So the father divided the property between them. After a few days, the younger son collected all his belongings and set off to a distant country where he squandered his inheritance on a life of dissipation. When he had freely spent everything, a severe famine struck that country, and he found himself in dire need.”

In this Sunday’s Gospel reading, Jesus tells three parables to the scribes and Pharisees after they complained to him, saying, “This man welcomes sinners and eats with them.” First, he tells them about the lost sheep, where the shepherd leaves the ninety-nine to go off in search of the one lost one. Next, he tells about the woman who lights a lamp in her dark room until she finds a lost coin. In both parables, there is rejoicing over what is lost. Likewise, there is rejoicing in the third parable, the Prodigal Son. “But now we must celebrate and rejoice,” the father says to his son in the parable, “because your brother was dead and has come to life again; he was lost and has been found.” In each parable, Jesus relates to the scribes and Pharisees, and by extension to every person, the joy of bringing back to himself all who are lost to sin. What strikes me in the third parable is how the father goes out to both of his sons, the prodigal son returning and the faithful but jealous son on seeing the feast prepared for his brother’s return.

You come after me, Lord. You come out to meet me and see me, as you did the prodigal son, from a long way off. And when I have been faithful to you but look for spiritual rewards or am jealous of attention that others receive and refuse to come back to you. You come out and plead with me, saying, “My son, you are here with me always; everything I have is yours.”

Lord, I know your love is unconditional and wildly extravagant. I know you love me and forgive me. Let me come to you today in the Eucharist and watch for me to come to you from a long way off. Help me call to mind any sin that separates me from you so that I am able to receive your forgiveness when I come to you in the Sacrament of Reconciliation. Teach me to rejoice as much in finding you when I have been lost as I do when you come out to find me. Help me learn to receive your love and give it away, to give away your love and receive it, and on and on.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

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